hey,
Well, a few seconds ago, Brandon walked right passed me. No eye contact. Just walk. Walk. No words. Just walk. Walk. I don't even know how or why I miss Brandon. I guess I'm just torn. I mean, I really want to be with Kodii and all, it's just sometimes, like other broken-hearted people, I have these moments where I think about what could've been or what I would do to change this whole ordeal if I could. It's these moments that are holding me, and others, back from continuing on with our lives and being happy. These moments are combining fiction and reality. These moments do not exist, but only in our mind. That's why pretty much everytime I see Brandon, I freeze. I freeze because I have a moment. A moment where I wonder what could've been. But immediatley after having that moment, I remind myself that I am a tough bitch and that I can get through anything. But it is only after I remind myself, that i realise that "anything" can sometimes be limited.
-tony
Me
- Tony
- Wisconsin, United States
- Well, let's see, I mainly like making these really artistic looking journals. I was required to make one for a class at school, and ever since then, it's been one of my newest hobbies. I also like writing novels, though I'm not that good at it. I also like singing, watching movies, and hanging out with friends. I'm very open to new ideas and people.
Films
JE VAIS TE DIRE UN SECRET ¤ In this film, shot over summer 2006, I tried to really be honest with myself and say it in front of a camera basically. It helped. It opened my eyes. ¤ Color-B&W / 2006 / 128 Min. (116 Min. Edited Version) / Released September 23, 2006 / VHS
TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN ¤ This is movie is much more entertaining than "Je vais te dire un secret." It follows me through the ups and downs of my sophomore year at high school. ¤ Color / 2006-2008 / 146 Minutes / Released February 5, 2008 / VHS
EIN SOF ¤ Hebrew for "without end," my third documentary has the main focus of love. Also included are some random blurbs about my summer. I'm very happy with this project. Inspired by Nick. ¤ Color / 2008 / 84 Minutes / Released August 2008 / DVD
Music
LIGHT YEARS ¤ I've been writing non-stop for the past year. I will start recording my debut solo album in Summer 2009. Until then, I'll be writing. I want an upbeat electronica feel to it with folk elements... folktronica.
Books
X-STATIC PROCESS ¤ This book is what started it all. I had to make it for one of my 10th grade classes. We had to change. And that's what I did, sort of. I'm still working on it. A cool music CD is inside. You listen to it while you read the book. They compliment each other. ¤ 2006-2007 / 166 pages / Released April 3, 2007
CIRCLES ¤ This is the follow up to "X-Static Process". Basically me, trying to change... again. It didn't work the way I thought it would. Expect volume three sometime soon. A music CD is included. ¤ 2007 / 142 pages / Released October 8, 2007
HOTEL ¤ This is the third and final installment in my "Drowned World" series. Also included are 2 music CDs you listen to while you read it. This also includes a bonus DVD. ¤ 2007-2008 / 208 pages / Released January 10, 2008
DROWNED WORLD ¤ This special boxed set basically contains the trilogy "Drowned World" in the order of completion. "X-Static Process", "Circles", and "Hotel" are the three books inside. Also included are the 4 CDs featured in each book and a bonus DVD. ¤ 2005-2008 / 516 pages / Released January 14, 2008
LUST ¤ This is sort of a "Drowned World"-esque type book, but a little more edgier and risky. There are three books included as well as a CD to listen to whilst reading ¤ 2008 / Projected release date May-June 2008
EGO ¤ An awesome new book with a "Drowned World" feel to it. I sort of analyze how I feel we are all slaves to our egos. One of my best ones. ¤ 2008 / Released April 30, 2008
BODY LANGUAGE ¤ An idea for a book I just got last night. I just started working on it today. It should be good. ¤ 2008 / 12 pages / Released May 19, 2008
SEASTORIES ¤ This should be a great one. I am traveling to Florida in February and I am going to take notes on everything like the surroundings and then come home and convert those notes into poems. I'm excited. ¤ 2008 / Projected release date June-July 2008
MERRICK ¤ This is a fantastic book. Basically the main character, Merrick, travels throughout America and meets many people along the way who shape his life in some way or form. ¤ 2007 / -- pages / Released January 3, 2008
LABYRINTH ¤ This is the story of me and how sometimes I feel like I'm trapped in my own life. Like there's no escape. Me craving knowledge. Me wanting knowledge. ¤ 2007 / 20 pages / Released November 13, 2007
EROTICA ¤ This book is a nod to Madonna's 1992 book entitled "Sex". I've grown so much from looking at this book. Some of it does make me cringe, but for the most part, it shows how low my self-esteem can get. I was never aware of that until I made this book and looked at it afterwards. ¤ 2007 / 26 pages / Released April 2, 2007
LEARNING TO FALL: THE FRESHMAN DIARIES ¤ This book (actually my day planner from school), really displays my freshman year of high school to a tee. Since I write almost everything down, this book is entertaining, but I also made up a lot of stuff freshman year, so just watch out for me and my attention seeking mind. ¤ 2005-2007 / 126 pages / July 30, 2007
LOVE OR SOMETHING LIKE IT ¤ This exact black journal was a gift from my first boyfriend. Inside are poems and quotes and writings about loving him and trying to move on. ¤ 2005-2006 / 84 pages / Released October 30, 2007
FASHION SUICIDE ¤ In this sloppy summer project, I tried to display how fashion sometimes isn't worth the thousands of dollars when across the world people struggle to buy a loaf of bread. I understand vanity, but there sometimes needs to be a line. ¤ 2007 / 64 pages / Released October 1, 2007
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