pink shirt

laying next to your twitching limbs
you're playing with my arm hair
as your pink shirt rises and falls
i suddenly realize you're a man
hairs peek out beneath your chin
and don't forget the one by your eye
probably the smoothest skin
and all i can think about is dieting
your face on my shoulder
as midnight grows older
watching guts on the boob tube
while i stare at your blemishes
all i can think about are your glasses
and that damn jaw-line

"dragon" is ending without a tear

hey,
Okay, so I know I was supposed to write a script and everything for Dragon, but due to lack of effort and creativity, (and participation from my actors) I have decided to stop writing all together and cancel the project. Below is what I had typed. I had so many good things planned...

“DRAGON”

SCENE I

(Darren is standing in a bathroom, staring into the mirror at his reflection as if he recognizes something that reminds him of the past. He gradually starts strumming his fingers on the countertop, hoping it will make the time go by faster. He pulls out a bag of cocaine, followed by a small mirror and a straw from the inside of the toilet. Just as he is about to snort it, he glances back up at his reflection.)

DARREN: Fuck ‘em. Fuck ‘em all.

(He begins snorting, but is soon interrupted by Shane knocking on the door.)

SHANE: Darren (pauses). Darren, hurry up.

DARREN: (whisper) Shit. (He wipes the powder off of his nose and tries putting his stash back in its hiding spot, but breaks a candle jar in the process. It shatters to the ground).

SHANE: What was that?

DARREN: (rushing to pick up the mess) Nothing. I’m… I’m cleaning the bathroom.

SHANE: (growing impatient) Come on! I need to fucking piss!

DARREN: Hang the fuck on!

(Shane eventually opens the door and sees Darren’s mess).

SHANE: What did you do?

(Shane leans down to get a closer look).

DARREN: It’s nothing.

Shane realizes that there is cocaine in the pile of debris).

SHANE: (angrily) I thought you said you quit!

DARREN: I did.

SHANE: What the fuck! No you didn’t! (She points to the pile) What is wrong with you?

DARREN: (trying to calm her) Shhh!

SHANE: You told me you were done with this shit.

DARREN: Please don’t tell Mila.

SHANE: You expect me to hide this from Mila, not to mention Casey, that you lied to all of us when you said you weren’t going to do this stuff anymore?

DARREN: Please don’t!

SHANE: You can’t rely on me to keep promises when you can’t even keep yours.

DARREN: (pauses) Mila will kick me out. I have nowhere else to go.

SHANE: (anger melts and starts feeling sympathetic). Let’s clean this up.

(Together they clean up the debris, including the cocaine, and flush it down the toilet).

DARREN: Thanks. (Thinks for a minute) This time I’ll try.

SHANE: I hope so—

(They hear Mila come home from her jog. She pokes her head in).

MILA: Hi guys (slightly out of breath).

SHANE: How was your jog?

MILA: (still breathing heavily) Exhilarating (she smiles).

SHANE: Really?

MILA: Could you guys hurry up? I’d like to take a shower. (Mila starts walking away).

SHANE: Oh… yeah.

MILA: (Stops and notices something about the countertop). Wasn’t there a candle there?

DARREN: (on impulse) I returned it.

MILA: (Stares at Darren) What?

DARREN: I didn’t like the scent.

(Shane stares at him like he’s crazy and slightly nudges him with her arm).

MILA: I bought that candle two years ago in Florida.

DARREN: Funny thing, actually—

MILA: Nevermind (walks away).

(Shane and Darren turn to each other and smirk).

*(“So You Say” starts)

(Opening credits sequence).

SCENE II

(This is all ONE shot)

(Darren is walking around aimlessly in the kitchen while texting).

DARREN: (voiceover) Shane and I have been friends since the second grade. She and I moved in with Mila shortly after we graduated from high school. We pay our share of the bills and chip in for the groceries. It’s a life away from parents—almost like I was freed from being in hell for 18 years. It’s better here. I like it.

(Darren hears music from outside. Shane is playing her guitar. He goes to the front door and opens it).

DARREN: Hey rock star.

(Shane stops playing and looks up).

SHANE: Hey queer (smiles).

DARREN: Gosh, it’s so beautiful out here.

SHANE: I’ve noticed.

(Darren goes to the faucet, fills up the watering can, and starts watering flowers).

DARREN: It’s sure tough to keep these flowers watered with all of this damn heat. It’s almost like it evaporates once it hits the soil.

SHANE: Well at least you’re trying. They look really pretty.

DARREN: You think so?

SHANE: Yeah.

DARREN: I’ve never tried growing this type before. Back at my parent’s house last summer, I tried growing a sunflower. It got about seven feet tall, then my dad picked it out and threw it away.

SHANE: Why would he do that?

DARREN: He thought it was an over-sized weed.

SHANE: What a dick. It must have taken a long time to grow.

DARREN: Yeah, I was mad. I’ve got to get the ones in the back.

(Shane resumes guitar playing as Darren makes his way to the back to water the flowers. Darren’s phone rings. It’s Casey).

DARREN: Hey.

CASEY: Hey.

DARREN: How are you?

CASEY: Great, and you?

DARREN: Enjoying the outdoors. Are you still coming over tonight?

CASEY: Of course.

DARREN: I’m making something special.

CASEY: What?

DARREN: It’s a secret.

CASEY: I don’t like secrets.

DARREN: Trust me. This is a secret you will like.

CASEY: What makes you so sure?

DARREN: I know you.

CASEY: And I love you for that.

DARREN: Of course you do.

CASEY: Are we going to be alone?

DARREN: No. Mila and Shane are joining us.

CASEY: What?

DARREN: I thought you knew that.

CASEY: I wanted it to be just us.

DARREN: I wanted that too, but I can’t just force Mila to leave her own house. Plus they’re my friends.

CASEY: I wanted to end the night with a big bang.

DARREN: Casey, you know I’m not at that level yet.

CASEY: I know.

DARREN: But at least we can play tag with our tongues.

CASEY: You’re funny.

DARREN: I try.

CASEY: Well, I have to get back to work. I’ll see you tonight.

DARREN: Alright.

CASEY: I love you.

DARREN: I love you too.

CASEY: Bye.

DARREN: Bye.

(Darren hangs up the phone and walks back to the front of house with watering can. He walks inside past Shane who is still playing. He walks up past Mila who is blogging in the kitchen).

MILA: What time’s Casey coming?

DARREN: Seven.

MILA: You were still planning on making pasta, right?

DARREN: Yeah, why?

MILA: (pulls package of noodles from the cupboard) I bought some noodles.

DARREN: You didn’t have to. I was actually planning on going to the store later.

MILA: I know. I thought I’d be nice.

DARREN: (pats her on the shoulder) Thanks.

(Mila smiles as Darren exits. Mila continues blogging about Shane).

it's been an epoch year

hey,
Well, the moment I have waited for has finally arrived: I am holding the 2008 Hudson High School yearbook in my hands (actually my lap) as I type this. It's so exciting to look through these pages and be like "I created that," or "my friend did that page." I'm kinda mad a little cause I've already found a few errors, but I won't tell anyone... I'll wait for them to find the mistakes. Also my house got egged. I have somewhat of an idea of who might have done it. One person's name rhymes with "Gorman" and the other's rhymes with "Laurie." I accused another person of doing it, even though they were "at their boyfriends" but I just don't know who to believe anymore. I just wish people wouldn't be so immature.

P.S.: Lust is going along great and Body Language is finally finished. Yay!

♥ tony

new pages from "lust" and "ego"

hey,
I've finally got off my lazy ass and decided to post a page from Lust and two pages from Ego(respectfully in order):

give it 2 me

hey,
So yesterday I was so excited about the Sticky & Sweet Tour, but now, according to my mom, I can't go. She just has a problem with it being 380 miles from here. She just needs to understand that I'm going with friends and that this is a once in a lifetime thing for me. I'll try convincing her some more, but not to the point where she gets so annoyed with me that she puts her foot down and it stays down. Let's just hope for the best!

♥ tony

happy 100th posting

hey,
Well I knew this day would eventually come: my blog entries have officially hit triple digits. And now for quadruple!! I'm really excited cause Madonna just announced her fall tour schedule and dates! It sucks though cause the nearest she's ever came to the cities is Chicago. I'm totally planning on going... if it's against the law, arrest me! I just want to find someone to go with cause I don't want to travel to Chicago all by my lonesome old self. I'm sort of nervous about ticket prices though cause according to LiveNation.com tickets should be in between $55-$350. I'm sort of hoping for ticket prices to be around maybe $100 or so. Anything over $200 (unless I actually have the money) is most likely a no-no. But I mean, this is a once in a lifetime thing: seeing Madonna live and on stage, strutting her stuff. I'll just have to keep my hopes up and hopefully I'll get a job soon so I can pay for them. Anyway, to the left is a promo poster for the tour appropriately titled Sticky & Sweet Tour 2008/2009:

darren hayes (a.k.a. my husband)

i ♥ "the L word"

hey,
So I must confess my newest guilty pleasure... "The L Word." I've borrowed the first season from my friend and... those ladies are like crack; so addicting!! I have the fourth and final disc of season one sitting in front of me and i cannot wait to go home and watch them. What else... I took senior pictures today and they actually turned out really good. I'd fuck me. Well, maybe that's saying too much. Lust is to premiere at the Hudson High School Student Art Show on both May 22 & 23. Seriously, I only have about 10 pages done and about 290 to go. I'm gonna start pushing it to the limit. Also displaying at the Art Show will be Drowned World (of course) and Ego. I'd have to say that second to Drowned World, Ego is probably my favorite project. I'm so blunt and honest; I'm not afraid to make a fool out of the past. About a week ago I finally got Drowned World back from the Art Show in Minneapolis and I sorta wish that people would have written comments or something on a piece of paper. That's what I wanted most out of the art show: feedback. I not only wanted positive feedback, I wanted all sorts of feedback like... "This sucks!"... "This rocks!"... Stuff like that is really rewarding for me. I should tell you that I took the liberty of getting highlights in my hair. Not a lot... just a "peek-a-boo" in the front with 3 chunks of it on top. It kind of looks like peanut butter (I wanted platinum blonde), but it looks good so I can't complain. I really hope to see Madonna on her Hard Candy Tour... I just have to jump at the chance when tickets become avaliable. I just hope I have enough money. That's about it for now. I need some lunch.

♥ tony

art show/"hard candy" review

hey,
So my school is having an art show at the end of May, and I'm really pumped cause I have six pieces I want to enter... don't know if all of them will get in though. Let's think on the bright side. On the other hand, Hard Candy was slightly amazing. I would give it about an 8/10 because a few of the songs were like "seriously?!" ("Incredible" and "She's Not Me") but I have gotten use to them and they are great. I highly recommend buying this!!

♥
tony